I know what you are thinking, this is not berserk making this apology, it is me, I have to be on my second account since my main account is also forum banned. I know making this will probably get this account forum banned as well but I need to get this off of my chest.

On the 14th of January I was banned for serious harassment via PM's directed to the user lolelf123. The specifics of what he did to make me harass him is not of importance at the moment, I want to sincerely apologize for what I said and how I treated him. When I saw what he said I went into a blind rage and could not help myself from saying those terrible things to him, I had no previous knowledge of who he was and to me at the time, he was just another person on the internet being a troll. After I was banned I found out that it was more of an honest mistake and not someone just trying to make people angry. What I said is unforgivable and nobody should deserve that in any circumstance. If you are reading this lolelf, I'm sorry for the things that I said to you, I could not control myself and I had no right to take my anger out on you, or on anyone for that matter. I do not know how i can make it up to you, and this is the only way that I could do so in spite of my recent inaccessibility to the server and the forum.

I am not sorry to just lolelf for what I did, I am sorry to every person on the server who saw how I had reacted, and even to the people that have not. Being a former moderator I was entitled with being a sort of role model for the community, I was always very tame and was very outspoken without being rude or negative about it. This situation was a complete turnaround of who I was, and I do not doubt that I have lost friends from the whole ordeal. After I was banned I talked to some of my friends and I felt in some ways like a criminal, they were disgusted with me and wanted no part in being friends with me anymore, It was a terrible experience and I know those were great friendships I will never have again. If I somehow get un-banned and come back, I feel like I would not have the right to speak in global and talk to people as I once did, I feel like I am an ashamed member of a community I once belonged to. I am sorry for everything I have done and become, and I am sorry most specifically to lolelf, I hope at least some of you will forgive me and I hope for a day where I will not be banned and will be able to play on my favorite server once more.

Sincerely, with my upmost apologies,
Berserk_on_xbl (AKA: Box)

P.S. I know doing this is bypassing a ban on the forums but I would like to stay un-banned so I can keep up with this thread. Thank you if that is at all possible. Also, I am not doing this just for more sympathy to get un-banned, I feel sorry for everyone I have affected and just wanted to set everything right.